Wow. Now i'm feel like a Rocker, feel want to scream pressure outta my mind. It midnight, I'm back here once again. Ya, i know that nowadays i'm kinda busy with college life, working & Plus Plus or maybe more than that. But sometime i might feel guilty while i'm BUSY, I seem like neglect my friends & everyone who was surrounding me =/ I have to say i'm sorry. I'm still can't forget my beloved BFF =/ I have to mention, I don't want because of time make us feel distance in this friendship. below there; there some words for you. My BFF.

It midnight, i cannot fall asleep at all because now i'm thinking bout you. My mind was blank by now, one thing i can make sure was my heart really love you. I know you are confuse about our relationship, can we don't talk about this? Ya, i'm still young & i 18, but i still have the right to love a person right. I know you cannot sleep because of this problems, one thing i have to say is when you care so much those misery problems it might kill your mind and feeling, why you care so much about age gap and minder problems? it that my love not enough for you? you say that our age gap cause our minder cannot be connect, but why? Do you know i already try my best, now i feel breathless. I don't know now i should do what, don't know that what i can do for you. Your pain show on your face, i feel painful, i can swallow all the pain, but you make sure that you never get the pain. I love you, can you love me for a second? it will be enough for me :')

When you read this, you will know that how much i love you, boyfriend. In my mind you the one who can make my heartbeat, you never know that while you told me that your feeling are gone for half, what you never understand that in make me heartbreak & tears never stop, the tears make me realize that how much you means to me, i can do anything for you, i can none stop told you that i love you for a million and billion times, i can gave you what i had, but now you may won't do the same again, even you won't do the same but i will be always love you. Not matter how you change, i still the same right here for you. Be with you was the moment i most happiness, now the day turn into dark everything gone worse, you turn into somebody else that i can't closer with, i know that you want a relationship can last forever, but find a true love before you want last forever, if not it just useless. Yes you did break my heart, but i never blame you, i just blame i'm the one who can't be perfect for you .To be honest i don't want simply give up like this ,i will walk through all this pain & wait for you. That some words for you, boyfriend; i can accept everything about you, even some misery that you cannot be able accept. Don't simply give up in this relationship because of age & minder, now we should solve those problems, avoid can't be help anything right now. Remember I always love you just the way you are. That why i still believe that after raining rainbow will be come out. Last words XoXo , boyfriend.

I think i'm going explode my bullshit emotion in here. I'm sorry, but i have to do it. I know that everyone after working were tired, that why they temper become worse & talk not nicely at all. I understand. But Do you know, Friends? i lie my mom that i'm finish my work while 10:30 pm the true actually was 10 pm, I can't say anything else, i know you guys didn't call me to wait, from the start till ends is me, i'm the only one want to wait you guys finish work. Friends why don't you look at me for a second? Everyday i wait for you guys, all i just want get closer with you guys, but in the ends i feel empty with you guys words. waiting you guys, make you feel annoying? & just because you take more free egg tarts getting other working partner saying will make you mood became worse and saying me annoying? I feel empty. Plus just forget it. My birthday coming soon, but i guess they too busy celebrate for me, maybe they forget me, I don't really expect too much as long we still friends. ya all alone & work while birthday 26/1. Love you guys, if you still remember my day. XoXo; Evey.

It doesn't matter i entertain myself all the times in here & it might be pathetic. It okay you judge me in this ways. okay i admit that before i have feeling with her But i already been her friend 3 years more, even i don't understand the point and the problems between E & B, as a friend we might can feel your friend mood right? If you from my angle, you won't say me like this ways. Let me question you, do you feel happy if your friend was unhappy? I'm not happy. Sometimes i hear something about E and B while she talk with other friend, i got ears, i can listen, you can't force me stop listen right. so hope you understand me. i'm not prove that i'm her gf, please enough i don't want quarrel in here. hope you don't mind with it. Every friend want E to be happy, not just me, i can prove it. Do you know E will be working without off day? E was insane in working and she was sick feeling not well. I know you support B, but can you think for E? To be honest i know what happen between them but i just don't want speak it out & make this thing become serious. If you got anything else want tell me, leave a comment in my chat box.

Shut up! Please don't say that you love her and feel that she don't want the relationship anymore, you don't know how she feel right now, if you really care her please don't type some bullshit words in blog. seriously it might make her feel worse or not. i know i have no right to say anythings else but i'm still her friend. As her friend i have to say if you really love her, please stop type the words which killing her mood, does you want her moody whole day? please see us, we need to work ,we have our life , we still have many things to do, not just dream in virtual world like you. so wake up. I know you are easily hate people, but i'm not that types, i have to say i don't hate you =) just give her some times.